Sacred Space – It Was Never Just the Altar

he idea of sacred space and how we approach it as modern pagans has been on my mind. With my current home situation figuring out how to set that space, and feel ANYthing at it weighs a bit. At some point, over the course of our practice, many of us quietly develop a checklist depending on whether it is group or individual ritual.

We start with an idea that we need an altar. That altar needs bling, right? We need candles, tools, maybe if money allows we need statues. We collect and polish, wrap carefully after ritual if in a public place, place the bling in totes that we haul from place to place and take turns storing until the next high day. If we are really lucky maybe a special room, place in a yard, a sacred dedicated space in nature. If all else fails, we start eyeing bookshelves and wondering if we can convince a cat to surrender eighteen inches of territory if we give them enough treats as sacrifice.

Don’t get me wrong, I love altars. I have lots of them myself, but currently everything is in boxes contained in a 10×20 storage unit while I am across the country. My cousin will refer to belongings as “just stuff” that you can walk away from at any time and just replace it. I get that, and I am truly happy that she is in a place where easily replacing your belongings is a viable option. I am not at that point. I’ve lost everything so many times that I hold on to what I DO have as it an extension of me. A hard earned, well thought out item that brings me joy and a sense of accomplishment. Our altars are the same. I wonder sometimes, though, if we’ve unintentionally trained ourselves to believe that sacredness only exists where we’ve deliberately placed it. If the candles aren’t lit, or the trappings not changed for the new season, the incense isn’t burning, have we somehow convinced ourselves the sacred part is temporarily closed?

In the small selection of material we have, a different picture emerges. The farther you wander back into early pagan societies, the less you find spirituality separated from life itself. Rather than a room, table, or shelf you begin finding places. A grove, a spring, a stone, a crossroads, or even a hill. There might have been a tree that everyone in the community simply knew was important. Sacredness wasn’t always built the way we do today. Sometimes it was just recognized.

Take the Icelandic concept of sacred mountains and protected landscapes. We see hints of this in the Icelandic sagas and settlement traditions where certain hills, stones, and features of the land were approached with respect. Land wasn’t simply property. It carried presence. The Landvættir, spirits of place, remind us that people weren’t walking around assuming every space belonged entirely to them. There was an understanding that you were sharing the world with other beings. You were a participant, not the owner.

We see something similar with sacred groves across Germanic and northern European traditions. The Roman historian Tacitus describes communities gathering in wooded spaces rather than elaborate temples. While we always have to take Roman, and Christian, observations with a healthy pinch of salt, the larger pattern appears repeatedly throughout archaeological evidence. People met the sacred outdoors. They gathered where the world already felt different to them. There wasn’t a need to build an elaborate structure because the place itself was the structure.

Even in later Scandinavian folklore, that relationship continues. Certain hills belonged to hidden folk. Certain waters deserved offerings. Trees were left alone entirely because everyone understood there was a relationship there that wasn’t purely human. Until monotheism came through and attempted to destroy it all. Time progressed, societies changes, and we moved forward.

Then somewhere along the line, we reached modern life. We paved and scheduled things. We compartmentalized. We became very efficient little creatures. Home. Work. Errands. Spirituality. Everything got sorted neatly into its own container and labeled much like that hall closet with all your yuletide totes. Which means many of us now approach sacred space as though we’re trying to manufacture it from scratch every single time.

Light the candle. Spirituality activate! Extinguish candle. Spirituality dissipate. With that final take down, the gods politely clock out until further notice. Life returns to the mundane. I say that with affection because I’ve absolutely done it too. But the older I get and the longer I practice, the more I’ve started wondering if sacred space is less about creating a separated idea and more about just paying attention to what is already there. Perhaps sacred space isn’t a destination at all, but simply a relationship.

I don’t think our ancestors spent every waking moment performing ritual. They still had chores, children, weather, illnesses, stubborn livestock, and neighbors who probably irritated them from time to time. Life was still life. But the sacred wasn’t confined to an appointment or an eight-spoked calendar. It was woven into every day living. That doesn’t mean our altars are meaningless. Quite the opposite. They can become beautiful focal points and anchors within our constant practice.

The problem above only appears when we start believing sacredness lives exclusively at that particular spot. The gods don’t disappear because we left the house. The ancestors don’t stop existing because we’re standing in a grocery store. The land doesn’t stop being alive because we’re walking through a parking lot instead of a forest. Sacred space was never a room. It was never a piece of furniture. It was never an aesthetic. It was never a social media photograph with twenty-seven candles and suspiciously perfect lighting. It was relationship, attention, and participation. Maybe that’s one of the biggest things we can reclaim as modern pagans. Permission to stop trying so hard. Permission to allow sacredness to be a little messy and a little ordinary. 

After all, some of the oldest spiritual traditions we have survived precisely because they weren’t separated from life. They were embedded within it. Maybe the sacred was never asking us to build a doorway. Maybe it was simply waiting for us to realize we’d been standing inside it the entire time.

Enjoy this summer sunshine and even the stormy weather. Remember to take a moment out of your day and find your sacred breath.

Happy Fall, Ya’ll!

Fall Equinox 2025, and Winter Finding 2025 are now done.

I’ve been working on a couple of projects this last week. My twelve days of Samhain journal is now finally up on Lulu. It wouldn’t let me post a link to click on so here is a quick screenshot:

It’s designed to walk someone through extending the Samhain season with a small rite over 12 nights. It is only a little journal rather than a book with history and practices. I think it will appeal to people new to ancestor veneration and those that might struggle coming up with their own words. It’s a nice little companion piece.

In addition, I just put up my first podcast on Podbean! I’ve always hated the way I sound on recordings. I am also not very good with clipping audio files together. I will admit I stuttered quite a bit and had to write out my thoughts ahead of time so I wouldn’t run off on any tangents. I suppose I could have re-recorded but after several hours putting it together my butt was hurting. I hope I sound a little more natural than I think I do. It’s a blend of mythology with a sprinkle of educational content. Nothing too heavy but it’s a good beginning before diving in headlong towards really out there UPG.

The programs that I used for things like this in the past either don’t exist anymore or they have changed to the point that I no longer have the skills to use them effectively so user error most likely. Then there are the ones that became pay only. Ugh. As I am still unemployed, they are luxuries I will have to forego for the foreseeable future so subpar audio it is. Here is the link if you care to listen. I apologize for any weirdness in the audio. I have a new microphone and it doesn’t always get my voice inflections correct. Oh well. It can only get better from here…right? I will cross my fingers that somewhere in the future I will be rich enough to hire someone else to do the editing for me and all I have to do is talk. Goals!

agvanidottir.podbean.com/e/in-the-beginning-part-1/

So, what is coming up? Winter Nights the middle of October and then Samhain. I have a lot of my belongings in boxes and totes right now in case I have to put stuff in storage and move. It all depends on whether I find a dang job. That means a much more scaled down version of everything. Tealights and some incense. Work on my pretty words again and that should about cover it.

Healthwise I am doing better. Now that I am not working under such a stress inducing situation most of the inflammation, sleepless nights, and anger have subsided. Definitely happier over all if not a lot broker. I still don’t regret leaving the job, just losing the paycheck.

Other than that not a lot else is going on. I guess now that I have put the first journal out and the first podcast I will have to get going on the follow-ups. In the meantime –

Don’t forget to find your sacred breath.

Fall updates

I’m not even going to pretend I have had it together these past two years. Every time I lay out my plans, with the best of intentions, the Universe conspires to knock it out of the park.

So, fast updates – I left my job of 6 1/2 years back in July. The manager treated me differently than the other members of the team leading to a toxic situation for me. I wrote the position I was originally hired for back in May 2020 when the company changed how they imported their data to the system. I was the only one doing it and had to work with three departments to build and fine tune the process. I was the subject matter expert. I generally pulled between 50-65 hours a week to make sure everything was done on time and accurately. I applied for and accepted a new rule under the same manager in Sept 2021. Trying to hire someone to replace me in the old role turned out to be a significant challenge. They ended up hiring three different people to do the work I had done by myself. Then in the spring and early summer of 2025 I had to watch as the new guy of 9 months received not one, but two back to back awards for doing the job I built. A job I was never nominated for in all the time I did it. A man received two awards within 4 months, had not completed his initial training, and whose work I was constantly correcting because he had no office skills. The woman who did the job for six years didn’t even receive a public thank you in all that time. Red Flag! The manager kept up the passive aggressive BS she began exhibiting two years prior of “I realize no one else appreciates you, but I do.” Red Flag! As of April 2025 I had still not been transitioned into the role I accepted in 2021. After complaining to the director, a hard stop date was established. The problem? When I was set to begin learning about the new role the manager admitted that she didn’t have any way to train for the position established. So in 4 years of waiting they didn’t put a single thing together to transition me. Red Flag! Add to that the fact that since I complained against my manager I was now further isolated underneath her thumb and kept from interacting with others. Red Flag!

In June I went to my PCP who had been trying to figure out what was wrong with all my blood work and why none of our care plans were having an impact. It was a different physician than my usual one and she laid it out pretty bluntly: ‘you need to get rid of whatever this thing is that is causing all your stress. We can’t get the inflammation down until you get your body out of flight or fight survival mode.’ The main thing causing me the frustration and stress? The thing that even on the weekends, holidays, and time off I couldn’t seem to de-stress from? My job. I was hesitant what with the current climate. I made good money, decent time off, some flexibility for dr appts, and had longevity. I had been trying to find a new job for over a year to no avail so I kept trying to hold on hoping it would get better. I pulled jury duty the last week of the month and when we got back a little earlier than expected that week (3 days instead of 4) due to no cases, I logged into work. Not a single person spoke to me the entire day. Something in me cracked. I wrote up my resignation letter and began to compute my finances to see how long I could make it. After doing math several times, I scheduled my resignation letter to post to my manager and director over Fourth of July. The next week was my last. Not a single person from my team spoke to me, said goodbye, or good luck the entire week. Not one. However, directors and people from multiple other departments messaged me to say thank you for all of my hard work and how they had appreciated everything I did to keep things going over the years. Interesting. My manager said no one appreciated the things I did.

The first week off was surreal. I made sure to pay bills off where I could, crossed all the t’s, dotted all the i’s for the road ahead. I tweaked my resume and began to apply for jobs in earnest. The next several weeks I finished paying off some other debts to where now I only have student loans. I had budgeted to be okay through October but then discovered last week that my student loans kicked back in sooner than expected throwing my whole budget off. Now I have until the end of September to become gainfully employed. Yet I don’t regret leaving the job. I regret not having the longevity of time and the pay checks as the housing market is finally becoming manageable again. I am irritated by that one. I will be starting over from scratch again unless I receive a windfall of funds from somewhere. Anyone know a sugar daddy for me? My health has improved. Most of the inflammation has gone down and I am actually getting sleep even though it’s in smaller chunks throughout the day and night rather than just one long stretch. Mentally and emotionally I am not the train wreck I had become by the time I quit. I am getting nervous about the job thing now that my time frame is shortened by a month and what responses I get are either spammed/spoofed jobs or rejections. I am over-qualified and old. No one wants to pay what I am actually worth for the skills I have gained over the years. I have a minimum threshold in order to make ends meet on a single income household so I can’t take just anything if the pay isn’t high enough. Then there are a bunch of new programs and processes that I have never had to use, which eliminates me from a lot of positions when they mark it as required. And when they figure out my age, well that just puts the nails in the coffin. 😛

So writing, reading, rituals, yard work, house work…it’s all been hit or miss over the past two years with mostly misses. I still have things rattling around in my head, and some notes I have dictated, but the current upheaval in my life seems to be causing a reading/writing block. The spirits say: create your own job. I say: how the hell do I do that when I hate cameras, do not have video editing skills, write like a 12 year old, need to pay ever increasing cost of living bills NOW, and have lost my love of reading thanks to OSU?

Sigh.

So this is where I have been. And where I am now. Let’s see if I can pull my ass out of the fire again.